One evening quite recently, I lied
down to rest and had a special experience with Jesus. In my spirit, I saw
myself in the apartment of my paternal grandma, reliving a moment in my early
teens. At the bedroom of that apartment, my grandma had a big mirror, and there
was also a big closet of clothes in the room in dark wood. In the shelves under
the mirror, there were some jewelry pieces and fragrances of grandma which I
always loved to look at. One of fondest memories of the time was me playing in
that room in big emptry TV box, imagining it as a house. Jesus brought me back
to a moment in that room which I have not thought of recently. I was standing
in front of the mirror and put on a new piece of clothing, which, looking back,
was one of my favorites during my early teens. It was a purple summer onesee of
shorts at the bottom and strap top, made from very soft and stretchy material;
I could almost still feel the touch of that material in my hands. I relived
that moment with Jesus and then heard Him say: I AM HERE FOR YOU. I could
experience now that this piece of clothing was His special expression of love
to me at a time, though I did not recognize it yet then. Indeed in those days it was difficult to get
something interesting and colorful like that. Then I saw Jesus lifting me up in
his arms, as a young teenager I was at a time, and turning around in the air, as we both were laughing. Later,
I saw myself standing in front of the mirror again, and saw Jesus wrapping His
arms around me from behind and saying: NOTHING CAN SEPARATE YOU FROM MY LOVE. That
moment, sun rays from the window of the bedroom from the left were coming right
to us and He was repeating:“Nothing… nothing… nothing can separate you from my
love.” I also saw Him sitting on the side of the bed, holding me in total
security and acceptance, and saying again: “I am here for you.” Some other memories resurfaced, Jesus again
assuring me that He is there for me, though it all. This experience in total
went for about two hours. A deeper stability and assurance of His love throughout
my life time was being worked into my spirit in the meantime. The experience
somewhat resounded with the message at the website of Sue Bohlin, which I had
listened to some weeks ago called “My precious bride”, available in full here http://suebohlin.com/mp3s/MyPreciousBride.mp3.
Here some meaningful quotes for me from that message: “How beautiful you are,
my darling, you are altogether beautiful, and there is no blemish in you. I
want you to revel in my love for you, a love which is bigger and deeper than
you can possibly understand, so you can let Me fill you till you are
overflowing with the delight of being loved and cherished. I wove your inward
parts in your mother’s womb, I watched you grow as I skillfully fashioned your
body and soul, and when you were born, I smiled and said: “Oh… I did a very
good job!” I think about you all the time. I know you better than you know
yourself. I know every habit and every idiosyncrasy about you. You are my
eternal companion to sit with Me on my throne. You are precious and honored in
My sight and I LOVE YOU. No one and nothing can separate you from my love.
Nothing… nothing…nothing can separate you from my love.“
Friday, August 25, 2017
Tuesday, August 15, 2017
Truly stepping out to follow
In July this summer, very powerful
experience for me has been watching the movie The Last Reformation: The
beginning (available on youtube, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zka4DUYeJ5g), which is
about wonderful transformations in street evangelism with signs and wonders
following. I highly recommend watching this movie, and there are training
opportunities organized by this movement in some locations as well. It started
with Torben Sondergaard’s heart’s cry to be fruitful and to truly reach people
for Jesus. While doing my readings in the Old Testament, I found some powerful
confirmation to what I saw in the movie. In Exodus 4, God sent Moses to
Israelites to set them free from slavery in Egypt. It is possible to draw some
parallels between how Moses was sent and how the disciples of Jesus were sent out
in Mark 16. Moses was given the sign of shepherd's staff turning to snake and
then back to staff; disciples were given power over demonic forces. Moses was
given sign of skin disease and it disappearing; disciples were given authority
to heal. Moses was given a sign of water turning into blood; disciples were
baptizing in water and overcoming by the blood of the Lamb (Revelation 12,11).
That is the true flowing Christ and stepping out of the boat; I slso love the boat
scene in movie The Shack (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1OHyINxuRQ). The aspect of speaking and testifying is
important regarding both Moses and disciples; something Moses felt hesitant
about and was given Aaron as a help. Help of disciples is the Holy Spirit;
Jesus assures He will give them what to say (Luke 12,11). In response, this prayer
arises in my heart: “Lord, help us to respond to your call and to be true
followers willing to step out! Enable us to walk in your authority, open our
mouths, and let signs and wonders follow!” Some claim that signs and wonders
are not for today, but Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever
(Hebrews 13,8). Interestingly, the verse of the month in my German Christian calendar
was about Jesus making us a fisher of men (Matthew 4,19).
I believe in many cases, we need
more than just the Word; we need to touch people to the depth of their need
with the power of God, and not just when reaching out, but also the people who
are already in the church – so many need physical and inner healing. We don’t
want to just have the shape and form of godliness, but God’s power in our
midst. I personally connect best to people who hunger for seeing more of God,
want to go deeper, and are not satisfied with just regular activities and seeing
God in some small ways in their lives. I recently made a new friend who has
health issues and it amazed me that though she has been part of fellowships, she
has not been joined in prayer for healing. We need to go deeper than just
superficial talks and lunches, notice the needs people are having and step out
in faith to reach out to them. We prayed
with this sister and continue to proclaim her healing. Sometimes stepping out
can be starting to proclaim instead of just praying to God, because it is
possible to pray from position of unbelief, but by proclaiming we learn to align with the position
of faith, hope, and expectation.
However, we also need God's guidance in
stepping out. At times we may respond from fight or plight reactions, which are
quite human - we either passively bear and avoid something too long, trying to
run away, or - confront and fight with some problem aggressively in our own
strength. These responses may be destructive and unhelpful to actually
change situation for better. In Exodus 2, Moses demonstrated both of these. He
killed Egyptian who was beating Hebrew slave, and then ran away from Egypt.
This did not achieve much to change the yoke the nation was bearing. The change
came when Israelites cried out to God, He heard and sent Moses to deliver them.
We need to pray and be in the presence of God, cry out and receive God’s guidance
rather than act upon impulses of our human nature. At the right time, God’s
way of delivering Israelites was effective, eliminating the whole system of
oppression and letting them to take out the riches of Egypt as recompense. The
quote that recently also spoke to me, sent to a WeChat list (author unknown) states as follows: “Witnessing is not something we do for God;
it is something we do in response to what God is doing. Real witnessing doesn’t
involve selling Christ as though He were a product; it involves learning to
recognize the Spirit of God working in someone’s life and joining Him in this
activity. “No one can come to Me unless the Father who sent me draws them, and
I will raise them up at the last day."(John 6, 44)”
Wednesday, August 9, 2017
Encouragement for open opportunities
This summer for some weeks already,
I have been daily into Bible, the Old Testament, and often experienced that I
was given just the encouragement I needed. For instance, on several occasions,
I was given right words at the right time that contained encouragement regarding
work.
This summer, I have been looking for
some more work opportunities at the university as I will soon be able to round
up and defend my PhD dissertation and have acquired some experience in
university teaching already. In my search, I once went to a meeting where I had
chance to make some personal connections regarding teaching at a different
department. All was well, but on the way strangely I experienced strong eye
irritation, which shook me off balance and left me struggling with feelings of
defeat. Somehow the discomfort followed me into the meeting, and though I had
opportunity to make some contacts, I felt low upon return home. But God gave me
powerful encouragement through my daily readings: "Don't be afraid. I am
your shield. Your reward will be very great." (Genesis 15, 1) In this
verse, God gives Abram His encouragement and shows things yet unseen in the
visible. I felt God was making me the same promise about opportunity ahead of
me. Quite powerful verse was also: “Go! Walk back and forth across entire land
because I will give it to you.” (Genesis 13, 17) So despite the way I felt that
evening, I sent e-mails and CV’s to few persons, and eventually it resulted in
another meeting and teaching opportunity. Interestingly, just before that
meeting, I also had a situation that shook me off balance, but I quickly sent
message to sisters in faith to pray and was able to calm down and have a good interview.
Another struggle on my mind lately
has been about being able to have right balance as this year, I did not get
longer holidays in Europe and have been feeling tired, wondering how to manage
all areas in my life, such as raising kids, working, and finishing
dissertation. These struggles were exacerbated by the fact that my youngest,
Viva did not get a place in local daycare for another year, and also
dissertation has not yet been possible to defend end summer as I originally
hoped. God gave me powerful encouragement from the Old Testament daily readings
that addressed these concerns as well. I was assured with a positive message
that God wants to bless us at the workplace and bless the work of our hands so
it can be a testimony to others. "The Lord was with Joseph, so he became a
successful man. Joseph's master saw that the Lord was with him and that the
Lord made everything he did successful. He put him in charge of everything he
owned. From that time on the Lord blessed the Egyptian's household because of
Joseph." (Genesis 39: 2-3, 5) Another way God used Joseph to make Himself
known in Egypt was through supernatural revelation and wisdom that saved people
from famine. When Joseph was put in charge of Egypt, the pharaoh gave him a
name Zaphenathpaneah (meaning – the Lord will speak; he will live). (Genesis
42, 45). All this reminded me that I do not have to accept failure in my mind; success
is my share as the child of God, and also that there is great destiny for us in
places God puts us. He wants us to be awe-inspiring to unbelieving world though
our work supernaturally blessed by Him, by His wisdom that comes through us,
and acts of saving people and nations, making them live. Moses’ prayer that has
been helpful in my earlier working life and that I was reminded of again, was: “Let
the kindness of the Lord our God be with us. Make us successful in everything
we do. Yes, make us successful in everything we do.” (Psalm 90, 17)
In addition, as I read on in Exodus, chapters 16 to 18 addressed the way God cared for three important areas of concern of Israelites - He provided daily necessities, he gave them victory over enemies, and He protected their leader Moses from getting burned out. This is great encouragement for us as well - God is able to provide what we need, make us victorious over opposition, and give us the right balance in our work and calling so we do not get too exhausted. Let us trust Him with these needs today, He is able.
In addition, as I read on in Exodus, chapters 16 to 18 addressed the way God cared for three important areas of concern of Israelites - He provided daily necessities, he gave them victory over enemies, and He protected their leader Moses from getting burned out. This is great encouragement for us as well - God is able to provide what we need, make us victorious over opposition, and give us the right balance in our work and calling so we do not get too exhausted. Let us trust Him with these needs today, He is able.
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